I just wanted to reflect for a moment.... I have had some crappy things happen in my life, and I spent a long time dwelling on them, but starting YCSC has been the most amazing thing ever for me. It has opened my eyes to the type of pain and hardship that other's, not much unlike yourself are going through...I always knew about the homeless and the 3rd world countries and all the political harships we see in the news, or walking the streets, but I have taken a journey into the lives of Young Adults with Cancer around me, and had an oppurtunity to see how much work there is to be done here as well. It may not make the newspaper headlines, it may not grab your attention. Chances are pretty good, that you will walk past a young adults who is suffering in their lives through their illness in more ways than you can ever know, and you wouldn't have a clue, because they look just like you....

Something that has become very predominate to me in the past while is that there are 2 types of people when it comes to illness... and I can honestly say I have been both. There are those who do not take their diagnosis well, they mentally prepare themselves to fail at their treatments, and to be down and out all the time. When you ask them how they are, they never have anything positive to say... I was there at one point... until I realized there was another way.
The second group of people think positively, and while they deal with the same obstacles, they take them in light, always looking for the silver lining, and even when they are down and out, they find way to light up other peoples lives instead of suffocating in their own.

If you are stuck in a rut of self pity, and it seems like there is nothing beyond you, and what you are going through...Take the time you need to live in that moment, and when you are done, seek out the people who are making the best of a crappy situation, because as with me, those people will teach you how to live, they will give you freedom and they will teach you there are things to be happy about, and causes greater than your own.

It doesn't matter how much attention you place on yourself and your own misery, you will never be able to get past your illness until you allow yourself to. All the sympathy from loved ones, and all the pity, will only send you depper down.

Reach out to someone else, Do something good for somebody. Touch someone's soul and learn from them... That's when you will realize that by giving, you will receive far more than you ever will by taking.

I know this may sound a little out there, but I just needed to put it out there.. If it doesn;t make sense to you, that's ok.. I will have the odd entry like that.