I continue to feel highly emotionally overcharged. There are still some issues I have yet to deal with that are on the front burner...I am intentionally keeping there as a fire under my butt to make sure I deal with them, but I have not found the strength to do so yet. Along with the stresses I have mentioned recently, I have newly added stressors that I am trying to manage while stil maintaining perspective.

Tonight I had a nice break from the norm with a visit from the Poulton family. We had planned a get together and decided to go with Pizza and board games at our house. It was a nice change and good to spend more time getting reacquainted. Alan was an old highschool friend from grade 8, that I was able to reconnect with about 6 years ago, but being on the island, we have only recently begun to have our families get together. We are, and always have been very similar personalities, and his wife is a doll. They are also huge supporters of YCSC and have donated door prizes, silent auction items, personal contributions to benefit all our Young Cancer Survivors.

Wednesday night I had my grand opening Jolica party. It went amazingly well. Seeing all the jewellery in person and seeing how much others like it too, was really great. I feel really good about my involvement with this company, and am also very amazed at the generosity of their incentive program. I can't wait for my jewellery to come in so I can begin to wear it! There are so many things I want and it's exciting that I am building my business and my jewellery collection at once! I have never owned really nice jewellery, and this stuff is cool because I can wear it for casual or dress up.

Less than two weeks until Kickin it Country Style. I am anxious and nervous all at once, not alot unlike the last pub night, but this time I am way less organized at this point then I was last one. I am hoping that it will all pan out well, Michelle and I will begin to lay the foundation.

My tailbone has gotten more and more sensitive and I constantly hear it make noises and pop. I pretty well have to sit on a pillow all the time now. Obviously nothing showed on the Xray, which is not necessarilly a good thing on several accounts...
1- There's nothing wrong.. If this is the case, how do I make it better?
2-It is VHL related... Since the vhl is cystic or vascular, it doesn't show on xrays.
3-It doesn't help me get the MRI any faster.. if there had been a shadow or something, it would have expedited my scan.
I am trying to stay positive.. It is just very difficult with the pain.

Kids are back to school,cheer,dance and swim so soon! Crazy how fast the summer went. Even little Trinity goes to dance this year... So crazy!

Well I am going to try and relax for a bit before bed. My anxiety has been especially high the past few nights and even my normal sleep ritual is not helping.. I feel the meds kicking in, but they don't help. I am hoping it passes soon.










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